Happy 30th Birthday (and Mid-life Crisis) to Me!

Always being the youngest among my friends, I've waited to be 30 for quite a while. I've felt like I needed a little age behind my words. However, I didn't expect to have a bit of a breakdown turning 30 last weekend.


It was a wonderful weekend with my sweet friend Tara in town. Sarah and Tara planned an incredible breakfast and day (full of berry picking, a fine happy hour of fondue and Martinis, and loads of talking and laughter...see picture below) that just filled my heart (and my wine glass) to the brim. I was so blessed after a week of Adam's sweet little activities for me and other friends' notes, etc.

I think I'm just aware that for probably 3/4 of my life so far, my life has been lived for me, and filling me. I've done amazing things and seen and been to amazing places, but I want to know that my life is headed somewhere amazing in impacting too. Yes - being a mother is extraordinary, and if that is all (I shouldn't say "all", I know) God has for me to pour myself into, I am so blessed, but I feel I have been so poured into, that at 30, it is about damn time that I poured myself out. I think, on this birthday, I wanted to know that God was going to lead me to that place. We will see. I think so, but, we will see.